Oh Canada

Do you ever wonder why we're so blessed here. Why are we so privileged to live in a country like this? We have freedom and food and beautiful homes and landscaped yards and medical coverage and gourmet dog food and closets full of cloths. Every time I read a headline lately I feel this overwhelming flood of emotion, every time I opened the paper to another animal covered in oil I'm disabled because of my tears, earth quakes in Haiti leaving things distroyed and millions dead or without homes and food, flooding in Pakistan killing thousands and warning of disease to follow. I mean there have been some pretty crazy things all over, here too, but not to the same extent or maybe we're just better equipped to deal with them. I feel overwhelmed by the blessings that comes with our country and wonder why us and not them. I realize many are quick to blame God, but I don't, I just keep thinking we were given this earth to take care of and wonder if these disasters are a result of us neglecting this precious place we call our planet. I read about injustice and wonder how things could/would be different if we were more involved with each other. Unfortunately in that same sentence I'm overcome with fear and questions of how, how do you change something that has been in place for years. I feel like we're not caring for our planet and we're not caring about each other and that scares me. A lot of the time when I speak of fear in my life it's not good because it's the type of fear that gets me in a corner and numbs my body. But that type of fear I've recognized as being from Satan, this this fear is different, maybe it's not even fear. It's a feeling that makes me think about how I spend my time, or pay attention to what it is that I'm complaining about, how much waste I make, the way I treat people. Every little personal action makes a difference is what I'm realizing and this applies to human race and our planet.

Anyways, I feel like I'm cramming too many thoughts into a short blog entry and it may not make too much sense, but I guess I just needed to say it out loud in words.