A hodge podge of recent events

Where to start, I guess the beginning would work. So I think it would be fare to say that the past couple weeks have thrown some bends in the road. The first surprise to grace my ears with its presence was that my daddy has to go in for open heart surgery.He needs to have a valve replaced and they want to do it sooner then later for a couple reasons. First, overall he's pretty healthy and it's obviously better to do these things when you're healthy and Second the lucky guy is taking his music classes to Italy in the spring. And just to clear things up, he's lucky because he gets to go to Italy not because he has to have heart surgery.Anyways, apparently it's not that serious of a procedure but come on, its heart surgery, that's a pretty important organ. He's been on the Hospital since Sunday having some test done and it ends up that he also has a lung infection. Please keep him in your prayers

Sunday was a busy day at the KGH because my dear friend Melissa's husband also was taken in . Matt sufers from colitis, but there are some other pretty serious things going on. I can't share to much but he's not doing to well and he will probably be there for a while. Please also keep Matt and Melissa in your prayers. I so easy it is to take our health for grantit and it's hard to understand what my mom and Melissa are going through.

Switching gears a bit, I'm been working for Joel's family business for the past year as a receptionist and as great as they've been to work for and as generious as they have been to us I've really been craving a job that challenges me more and has a place for further learning. I had applied at this paricular dental office and was feeling really encouraged and then found out today that they gave the postion to someone with past experience. I totally understand there decision but it's still hard to take. When I moved to saskatoon I figured that going back to school wouldn't be such a big deal, however, much to my dismay I've discovered that the programs I was interested in are not offered here and I'd have to go to Regina in order to take them. This doesn't exactly work for us. However, on an exciting note Joel got in to Carpentry and because he's been working under a journeyman carpenter he will be credited for all his hours which will make the program shorter. Either way, whether the program is 4 years or less he's so excited which makes me happy. He's always wanted to build a house for us and our babies (eventual babies that is) and he's so happy that'll he'll be able to do that. We're praying about starting our house next year but in the mean time we've been blessed with a great home.

So this is my first attempt at embracing the fact that I'm a part of a generation that is supposed to know everything about computers and technology, so far so good, but I'm still feeling a bit intimidated by the concept of having my own blog.

These past couple months have really got to me, and the reason being is I can't actually remember September or October happening, they both just seem like a blur. Joel and I were both blessed to have the past 4 day off and as Monday approached I realized how much I love having unspoken for time to do everything that doesn't always happen during a typical week. I could get my errands and cleaning done and still have time to relax. Joel is always on my case because I have a really hard time just sitting down, there's always something else I need to do whether it be this that or the other. Life happens so fast and before you know it, it's the middle of November. I'm realizing I'm not loving what I've allowed to become normal in my life, the hussel and the bussel, a constant need to remain occupied. I've struggled for a good part of my life with the question of "what am I supposed to do? what is my purpose?" and I'm realizing that every time I've cried out to God , cried in my room, cried in my husbands arms I've never just stopped. "Be still" I hear it all the time, and have heard it for as long as I can remember but I still make the choice to busy myself. Christmas is coming, my favorite time of the year, but this year I want Chrismas to be different. This year I want to go into the Christmas season with a quite heart and be still before my saviour, the same saviour that came so that I can have life; a life full of meaning and not just bills, shoping lists, cleaning supplies and every other excuse I could use to keep me from just being. I don't think I can stop life from happening so fast and realizing all the above hasn't given me an instant answer to my personal struggle of what will I be, but I can atleast make an effort to be more intentional with how I use my time. It's a start, and you have to start somewhere so I'm going to call that progress.